Tuesday, September 15, 2015

In A Year

A lot can happen in a year. 
One year ago today I was blogging about a salad. 
One year ago today I was pregnant. 
One year ago today, I didn’t know my baby girl was sick. 
A lot can happen in a year.
In a year, Tray and I received the most exciting news of our lives,
And then the most heartbreaking.
In a year we placed our hands on my growing bump to give our girl strength and love.
In a year we held her little body with our hands when the battle became too much for her.
In a year we held tightly to each other’s hands as we said goodbye to our sweet Maude Marie.
In a year, I lost touch with myself.
I had moments of strength and moments of weakness.
Moments of clarity and moments of anger and confusion.
In a year, we felt the tests and trials of grief.
We sank to dark places.
And we rose out of them.  
In a year I learned to be gentle with myself.
In a year I learned to give myself time.
A year ago I was full of hope. 
And now, I am hopeful again.
I am going back to the beginning to figure out where to go from here.
I am allowing myself to get back to my creative work as well as reflect on my past work.
I am allowing myself to come back to this blog today and am redefining what it is.
This blog is a place for growth.
A place for me. 
A place for me to document my strengths.
A place for me to show my loved ones what I have been up to.
I don't know what I will write about. 
What this blog will become.
How often I will write. 
But I do know that it will encourage me to continue to learn,
Continue to push myself,
And continue to be myself.  


  1. Love this and love you. You are so strong and amazing. I can't wait to see your new, redefined beginning.

  2. So beautiful!! Praying for you, friend! What a strong woman you are!

  3. Moving, touching, inspiring. Let it fly Julie. <3